Dark Poet

My field of vision turns dusky
Suddenly I feel numb.
No soothing words to calm me down.
No comforting drugs to make me gay.
A vomiting feeling comes crawling.
I feel like throwing up,heaving like a dog.

Drops of sweat runs down my face.
Pulling myself together so they won't see it hurts.
Flickering is all I see, it makes me shiver.
A ghostlike white color on my skin
and I feel pale like brought back from death.
I feel like passing out for every move I make.

A knife stuck in me, I cannot see.
Nor pull out or remove.
Tears begin to fall,
I take a deep breath and close my eyes.
Noone sees how bad it hurts.
Enduring the pain until it stops.